I'm so tired! I feel like quiting. My dear Lady, help me to see through in this dark clouds. I have no way to turn but you, i hope i can be strong, but inside this heart is only a child crying out load to be embraced and loved.

How i wish i could be with the one i loved, i want to spread my wings and fly away and leave this body of mine behind. I've been longing to give a hug and tight embrase to whom my heart desire. Oh mind and heart, imprison to your mortal body, hoping to be free. How i wish i can fly to the other side, and et your smile be my guide.

I am so tired and exhausted. I wanted to give up and just let go, but i know thats not the solution. I feel that people i care dont really care, i been hoping that they are the ones that would come and releaved me. But i know that complaining is not the answer, i just wish there is someone that would listen. My lady, i do not wish to lighten my burden, but i strong shoulder to carry till the end.

My Dear Lady, why is it so hard for me to be completely honest with you? Why can't i accept that i am so weak? I have to much pride. This pride is consuming my desire to love you, my trust and confidence in your love for me. I know i am weak, but if you only let me see your smile, i will be fine.

I received a text message from the person i really care about..."How is my husband to be" was the first thing i read. I cant really explain but it sounds good and i felt excited within. I really wish that can happen soon. I always wanted to be a husband of a woman i would care for the rest of my life and a father of many children whom i would raise with so much love.